Avoidant & Hopeless Romantic

A self-diagnosed avoidant,

I’m always trying my best to improve.

But if you keep breaking a heart that simply wants to be held,

you’ll find that avoidance is a pattern that’s difficult to dispel.

And that’s the other thing: I can never give a heart half-filled.

I always, always have to give it my all.

So now, I’ve resorted to giving nothing at all.

Better to never let it start

than to watch it end in crashes and floods,

left to pick up the pieces

of a heart that only ever knew how to give too much.

An avoidant, hopeless romantic.

A heart that longs to be held,

yet keeps finding ways to get out.