Let me be lost (for now)

I never learned to float

Whenever I am in the water, I kick as hard as I can

and go forward

Sometimes, I experience twists and turns

But there is never a moment of stillness

Now I am treading

Not exactly floating, but still quiet

Slowly, I am creating little bursts of movement here and there

no grand waves or strong tides

the struggle

the journey

it seems non-existent now

i’m lost

but right now, I don’t want to be found

let me be lost (for now)